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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2005|08:08 pm]
tapsmacksplash
[mood |thankfulthankful]
[music |The Hooka Mix!]

Joke me something awful
just like kisses on the necks of
"just friends"......


OH boy...been a while for this whole Live Journal thing but I think I have somthing worth while for once.
That is if you hung out with me last week, otherwise you may have no motive to read this! sry!

Although last week was definately a Hard one It was probably one of the funnest. Hung out with Mary and Sknapp one day, and then on wednesday STAR WARS...Hung out with Sknapp and she helped me get T-shirts for me and Kate...met up with Will Justin Adam Charlie Zac Matt Darin Shane and Eric at the movie! It was definately Intense, I may have fallen asleep a few times but I think I got the jist of it, definately caught onto some great light-saber moves to add to my already top-notch abilities!...dur anyways..Slept at kates...two of us in a tiny bed..thats right you can only imagine!..Friday was COURTYARD CINEMA..SKnapp Kate Priz and Mar came over afterschool and layzed by the pool with me! Split off for a while and then met back up at Justins where he showed off his Sweet Truck! The Night was a little dramatic but we might have had TOO much fun in the Courtyard where mary and Brett met me and kate and we discovered the fun of breaking glowsticks and drawing on your body..this is after we discovered they make good light sabers...haha okay enough with the StarWars crap, im not a dork I swear!...haha Slept at kates again with Mar and Sarah..went out with Annie Andrew and Steve saturday night! that was a fun okay so i might have seen starwars again but that was besides the point!..haha....and then well Sundays are Sundays right?
Thanks everyone who made the week fun!


LANE THREE FOR LIFE: Jesi and Lindsay you two are simply amazing. You have impacted me so much these past few years and changed who I have become, I know we will stay in touch but the water next year just wont be the same without you! nor will the pasta parties, the sleepovers, the soccergames, the Car-rides, the bus rides, the hallways, and where will i get my Music? I love you both so much, you have been there for me through everything, the good and the bad, you put up with my mistakes and rewarded me for my accomplishments, No matter how far life takes us know that you will always have a place in my heart. I LOVE YOU!
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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2005|01:57 pm]
tapsmacksplash
[mood |blahblah]
[music |none]

standing on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling worthless
used again but nothing's different
she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care


Birthday in 8days!
Black-n-White Party with sarah n lisa 13days Cant wait!

Things have been different lately but Im not sure if they are for better or worse, I guess I will just have to wait it out for a while and see how things go.

Mary Finn *5-1-05* haha I love you.
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Im Proud of Myself and I dont care if thats conceeded! [Apr. 13th, 2005|08:34 pm]
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[mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[music |John Mayer]

Well this is officially one of the best weeks I have had all year, thanks to alot of my friends and thanks to myself for being able to be strong. Having somthing new in my life to keep my mind occupied helped alot to keep my mind off of that one thing that has been on my mind for way too long. Yes its still there, but I was able to shove it away to the back of my head this week and not right up front where I see it as a priority. Its amazing how you think somone will never change and if you break away for a while and show them you can live without them, have a smile on your face, and not a care in the world..its amazing how quickly they realize they want to come back in your life. And for that person which Many of my friends know who im talking about, you arent going to get me back everytime you decide to be nice after everything you have done im not ready to let you back into my life just so that things can go back to normal for you, because honestly "normal" was a living hell for me this year...whew but i just dont mind anymore, for your sake im trying to look past your faults.

...anyways..TUESDAY NIGHT WAS THE BEST:I went to pennstation with MARY SARA and SARAH! Which is always fun, i might be addicted to pennstation? I think when I go tomorrow it will change from a might to a DEFINATELY addicted. We then proceeded to the Track meet where lindsey McCallum kicked some major ass..excuse my french but its true! I miss you lindsey!....then to the ITALY AND GREECE MEETING 365days heck yess!...thenn i rode over to the senior lot with mar and oz haha and then omeed drove me back to the soccer game WOW that was a LONG drive..caribou with priz and B and saw wit there..then back to the soccer game with them and Saw JESI and LAURA and EMILEE and MINI and CAMRON and MATT(heck yes mat is going to Italy with us!)..and a few other kidos... then me and Jenny waited for Sean and Alex to get their butts back from Arbys which took FOREVER..but it was well worth the wait me and mini kept ourselves occupied by singing/dancing to SNAKE and LADIES!...when they finally arrived we er takled for a while and I tried to crawl into seans trunk from the inside haha whoaaa..and MINI took me home!...and that along with homework ended my fantastic night! (ps.Mini it was fun hangin out with you on tuesday its been way too long but its always fun when we do! we are just SO much alike haha but not TOO much this time!)

Thanks loves.

ITALY GREECE COUNTDOWN 365 DAYS!
MAROON FIVE ONE DAY! SECOND ROW FRICK YEAH! CONVERTABLE TOMORROW Sarah EM and Priz!
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BOOM ITS ON! [Apr. 10th, 2005|12:00 pm]
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[mood |excitedGIDDY! haha IM a DORK]
[music |NONE]

 I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

So ACT yesterday morning ugh NOT a good way to start off the day but it got SO much better!....went tanning with Prizy Sorry to disclose this information sara but she accidently burnt her butt haha I love her it was funny...we then proceeded to pick up Sknapp in the CONVERTABLE! Went to drive around cuz we looked sweet with the top down hair blowin! Went to Justins and hung out with him omeed shane will and of course spencer and LOGAN...Went to subway where the guys ditched us, went to Red Knapps Saw Katie Beer, then went to Pennstation (no we didnt eat at all three places) Sean was working even though he hates when we stop by!Lisa met us up there and Alex and Zac were there so we hung out with them for uh an hour or so just sitting in the booth, which let me tell you doesnt sound fun but it was a BLAST....our next adventure was over to wills with him justin merk and adam haha we played dress up with justin and adam and then pushed will and justin around while they were blindfolded, oh yes and played with the secret trap door! THEN we went to spend the night at saras and just layzed around....we were gonna have a visitor(s) but all the girls but me fell asleep and our visitors "lost track of time" so I just went to bed....and here I am! up and  adam and its a BEAUTIFUL day.

Ps. CLAP YOUR HANDS THREE TIMES, TOUCH YOUR NOSE.... hahaha LOVE YOU GUYS

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...and its back to the ROC [Apr. 4th, 2005|07:45 pm]
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[mood |frustratedfrustrated]
[music |DMB]

So today wasnt as bad as I expected! It was great to see everyone again!
Sarah Came in after school and we chatted it up for a really long time after school! haha I cant believe we stuck around that place for so long! Then I went and visited Mar at work for like 2hours haha thats always fun! Talked to omeed hes stuck in LA, I miss him!.. then SARA came to Knapps for a while and I drove her home,man I missed her!

...So I succeeded in putting on my happy face today at school so I guess thats a plus...but then there are those people who know they should come talk to you or say hi but instead you catch them just staring at you all day or thinking of ways to come talk to the people around you..grrr hows about a simple hello to start off with? Its really not that hard and i swear it wont hurt you!...oh well what else is new, same ol same ol the entire year I dont know what I expected for today



I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
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SPRING BREAK OH FIVE! [Mar. 23rd, 2005|08:07 pm]
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[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |none.]

yesssss....leaving for spring break in like ONE MINUTE SIX SECONDS

stop one:GULF SHORES, AL my favorite place in the ENTIRE World..wont be the same without my girls!
stop two:KEY LARGO, FL woo wooop!
stop three: FT.LAUDERDALE, FL ye ye!
 Going with the Rents but it will still be fun!..beach, sun, bathing suit, and me!

....I CANT WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE....
  feels like i JUST got home from Jackson Hole with everyone but I am still very thankful that its SPRING BREAK...I need to get away from just about everything and just RELAX for a week I think it will do me good. Hope everyone has a FANTASTIC break...see you when i get home!

 


Vacation
All I ever wanted
Vacation
Had to get away
Vacation
Meant to be spent alone

Vacation
All I ever wanted
Vacation
Had to get away
Vacation
Meant to be spent
alone

A week without you
Thought I’d forget

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(no subject) [Mar. 14th, 2005|07:07 pm]
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[mood |sadawful]
[music |none]

1. FIRST NAME: Jillian
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: nope!
3. SCHOOL: stoney creek
4. MASCOT: cougar
5. YOUR NICKNAME(s): Jill, Jilly, Jills...basically jill with anything you want after it!
6. BIRTHDAY: 5-9-88
7. SEX: female
8. LOCATION: the ROCH
9. TIME: 7:10
10. GPA: 3.55
11. HEIGHT: 5' 3"
13. HAIR COLOR:dirty blonde?
14. EYE COLOR: blue
15. SIBLINGS: 1
16. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: normally Jesi Parker just burns me Cds!
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATER: Million Dollar Baby
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: SHARK TALE!
19. FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: ew..school
20. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: CHEMISTRY!
21. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH?: er..no
22. WHO ARE YOUR FRIENDS?: you know who you are
23. DO YOU HAVE A G/F OR B/F?: nope
24. WHAT'S HIS/HER NAME: well considering i just said no.....
25. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Julia Roberts
26. FAVORITE ACTOR: Tom Welling..sure
27. FAVORITE MOVIE: Drop Dead Gorgeous!
28. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Alias, the OC
29. FAVORITE STORE: I dont really like to shop but...DSW footware!
30. DO YOU DO ANY DRUGS?: yea but they are mainly over the counter so it doesnt count
31. HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST?: 200
32. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: 15-20minutes
33. WHAT'S YOUR FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION?: GULF SHORES and JACKSON HOLE
34. FAVORITE SCARY MOVIE: I hate scary movies!
35. MEN WITH OR WITHOUT HATS?: who cares?
36. FAV. FOOD: Velveeta
37. WORST FEAR: losing people i love
38. FAVORITE COLOR: Green
39. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: feeling loved
40. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: feeling rejected
41. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: of course
42. ABORTION: depends on the circumstance
43. TEENAGE SMOKING: retarded. im serious
44. EATING DISORDERS: a shame
45. RAP: OF COURSE
46. MARILYN MANSON: dur..no
47. BOY BANDS: gag.
48. DEATH: I think i gotta few years left in me!
49. TITANIC: ugh.hated. Just go in the fricken lifeboat so jack can used the door!
50. JERRY SPRINGER: entertaining, trashy
51. RAPE: horrible
52. SUICIDE: giving up

WHEN YOU HEAR THIS NAME, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF?
55. MICHELLE: branch
56. BILL: My dad
57. ZACK: saved by the bell!
58. MEGAN: glynn
59. KEVIN: F Kennedy
60. ALEX: ander...
61. GRETCHEN: recess!
62. MATT: BERG
63. ANDREW: MOCK!
64. BRAD: Pitt
65. ADAM: munro
66. HEATHER: ski team!
67. MIKE: and IKE
68. CHAD: Stencel
69. BRIAN: Drumming...
70. JOSHUA: ?
71. DANIEL: ?
72. ELIZABETH: Knapp
73. CHRISTOPHER: reeves
74. CHARLOTTE: Rousse
75. JOHNNY: Depp!
76. NICK: and Jessica
77. JESSICA: PARKER
78. WHAT COLLEGE DO YOU GO TO OR WANT TO GO TO?: STATE!
79. RELIGION: none?
80. DO YOU BELIEVE IN HEAVEN AND HELL?: no
81. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ANGELS?: no
82. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS?: psh yess...
83. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?: try
84. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?: yes
85. WHAT DO YOU DO THAT MAKES YOUR FRIENDS MAD? Complain
86. DO YOU HAVE ANY STUFFED ANIMALS?: Winnie the pooh collection!
87. DO YOU HAVE ANY BAD HABITS?: yep, who doesnt?
88. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT?: Penn Station...
89. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE HANGOUT?: PRIZYS..my other home
90. PEPSI OR COKE?: COKE
91. LETTERMAN OR LENO?: Leno
92. MTV OR VH1: MTV
93. SPICE GIRLS OR ALL SAINTS? spice
94. BEVERLY HILLS 90210 OR DAWSONS CREEK: Dawsons
95. ANGEL OR BUFFY:Buffy
96. DIET PEPSI OR PEPSI ONE: diet pepsi
97. APPLES OR ORANGES: APPLES for life
98. CHOCOLATE OR FLOWERS: Chocolate!
99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LOVE SONG?: save the best for last
100. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKUP SONG: since you been gone!
101. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?: Beach
102. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING AT THIS VERY MOMENT?: im sad
103. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?: heck no!..bring on the steak
104. FAVORITE KINDS OF CLOTHES: HOODIES!!!!!!!
105. THE LAST PERSON WHO CALLED YOU: Priz
106. THE LAST TV SHOW YOU WATCHED: hmmm...Inferno?

HAVE YOU EVER...
107. BEEN ON A PLANE: yes
108. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: Yes
189. CRIED IN PUBLIC: yes
110. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes
111. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: YES..damn summer morning practices
112. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: not yet
113. GONE TO CHURCH: yes
114. WATCHED DAWSON'S CREEK: yes
115. GONE SKIING: OF COURSE!..Out of bounds baby
116. GONE SNOWBOARDING: Ugh..bad experience
117. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: No..if you fall alseep they getyou!
118. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: YES!...Deanna wolfes baby!
119. BEEN TO CAMP: MT HOOD SUMMER SKI CAMPS!
120. PLAYED SOCCER: Aww those were the days..COE with her hand balls!
121. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: TIGERS..got rained out!
122. SEEN A PRO BASKETBALL GAME: PISTONS WOO WOOP!
123. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: oops..
124. EATEN SUSHI: ewww...
125. EATEN FISH: Salmon!
126. WANTED TO DIE: ashamed..
127. MET A CELEBRITY: BOB SEGAR...
128. MET THE PRESIDENT:nope
129. DIDN'T WASH YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEK: WILDERNESS SURVIVAL!(4days)
130. BROKEN SOMETHING VALUABLE: er..not that i can think of
131. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: At Grandmas..7yrs old?
132. BEEN SCARED TO GET A SHOT: Naw.
133. SHOPPED AT ABERCROMBIE & FITCH: Yes, Reminds me of LAURA
134. SHOPPED AT OLD NAVY: eh not in a while
135. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: yes
136. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: heck no
137. WATCHED MTV AT 4 IN THE MORNING: yess
138. TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: no..just watched others tip it!
139. MADE PRANK PHONE CALLS: chya
140. CAUGHT A FISH: yesss Cat fish!
141. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: not mine
142. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: soon...BELIZE, ITALY, GREECE
143. GONE TO ANOTHER STATE: Multiple
144. ROBBED SOMEONE'S HOUSE: Does stealing friends clothes count?
145. HAD YOUR HOUSE ROBBED: nope
146. BROKEN THE LAW: so i didnt know it was illegal..
147.EVER STOLEN SOMETHING? Do you ever eat grapes while grocery shopping?..flowers from Michaels
148. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT: nope
149. BEEN BEAT UP: yes..nothing serious
150. BEATEN SOMEONE UP: errr didnt mean to hurt them..
151. SKIPPED SCHOOL: Nope..im a good kid..just fake sick to get called out
152. BEEN MAD ENOUGH TO PEE IN YOUR PANTS: do people pee their pants when their angery?
153. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": YES
154. STABBED SOMEONE IN THE BACK: not intentially if i have
5 objects you touch every day:
01] phone
02] chapstick
03] toothbrush
04] steering wheel
05] ring

3 things you do every day:
01] sleep
02] brush my teeth
03] day dream

5 things you cant live without:
01] pictures
02] sara
03] mary
04] annie
05] friends
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(no subject) [Mar. 9th, 2005|10:15 pm]
tapsmacksplash
[mood |boredbored]
[music |Peaches mix!]

I woke up it was seven, I waited till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got alot of friends, but I don't hear from them
What's another night alone?
When your spending every day on your own
And here it goes...

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cause I'm all alone and the world is
Having more fun than me... tonight

And maybe when the night is dead,
I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these four walls again
I'll try and think about the last time
I had a good time. Everyone's got
Somewhere to go, and they're gonna leave me
Here on my own and here it goes...

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cause I'm alone
And the world is havin' more fun than me...

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and
I can't fall asleep and every night is
The worst night ever...

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid Yeah, I'm just a kid I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that its not fair
Nobody cares 'cause I'm alone
And the world is
Nobody wants to be alone
in the world
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid and I know that its not fair
Nobody cares 'cause I'm alone
And the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares 'cause I'm alone
and the world is having more fun than me... Tonight
I'm all alone... Tonight
Nobody cares... Tonight
Cause I'm just a kid... Tonight

Just one of those days.

and if we were walking down a dead end street, would you be the one to let our eyes meet, or would you just keep on walking -dispatch
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Dear Jessica Lynn Parker [Mar. 3rd, 2005|08:59 pm]
tapsmacksplash
[mood |thankfulthankful]
[music |DMB OF COURSE! its only appropriate if im writing to jesi!]

I thought I would just comment back to your post on you lj but then i decided i would just deticate an entry to you.

You are one of my bestfriends in the entire world and i have no idea where i would be without you. You have helped me so much this year and listened to everything i had to say, mostly whining and complaining but never the less you were there to listen. I dont think you realize how much you help me everyday if I ever feel alone I always know where to look. Its gonna be really hard without you next year but I know we will stay in touch. Its really comforting to know that you are there to look out for me JP, i really appreciate it. I dont want you to hurt becasue Of my hurting but I know that you do, and although i feel bad for making it that way it also feels good to have somone who loves me so much. You have taught me so many things over the past few years, advice that i will take with me as i grow up. I have made alot of mistakes in my life, this year seems to be standing out the most right about now, but after all my mistakes and after not following your advice and only hurting myself in the end you are still there to give me more. I could go on for hours but bascially what im trying to get across is that I love you with all my heart, I wish there was some way to show you how much you mean to me and how much affect you have had on my life. you are my role-model and one of the most caring people I have ever had the pleasure of being friends with. Livestrong and just keep swimming...."Although our lives may take us far look to the sky and let each bright star remind us just how lucky we are to be FOREVER FRIENDS" Jillian and Jesi.
I LOVE YOU!

These are the days worth living
these are the years worth giving
these are the moments these are the times
lets make the best out of our lives
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2005|11:25 pm]
tapsmacksplash
[mood |angryFURIOUS]
[music |NONE!]

WOW....So about that last entry I made like an hour ago..and as a matter of fact how about that one I made on Saturday about how i had a GOOD friday night...

IM PROBABLY MORE MAD RIGHT NOW THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN..........EVVERRRRRR

YOU JUST LOST THE BEST FRIEND YOU EVER HAD!

Well, IM SORRY. Ive NEVER been befriended this way.
I couldnt tell somone what it feels like to turn to you.
But I could describe your cold shoulder to anyone.
This will be YOUR loss.
I PROMISE you that.
-LF&KB

BUT...I love JP, Lindsey, Mar, Oz, Sara, Joey....thanks for letting me VENT!
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